Well hello friend, it's been a while.
Without going into too much detail, the end of April was rough for me. The weather was brutal and my heart went through the ringer. I chalk it up to spring and my birthday being in early May; a time for change and rebirth. And although I've never experienced it myself, from what I can tell, birth is painful and messy but at the end of it you get this awesome new little life to play with and watch grow into something beautiful.
Change sucks, even when you know it's the right thing to do, but I've been incredibly lucky to have an absolutely amazing support system around me. This newborn feels well loved and cared for.
So there's that. It's vague and silly, but it's how I feel right now.
Which brings me back - sort of, but not really - to the title of this blog post. For a long time, I didn't trust myself. I needed a second opinion on everything from what do you think of this press release to does this outfit look nice on me. I didn't ask for what I really wanted for fear it was the "wrong thing" to want. Most of the time, it got me into a lot of trouble and anguish for no damn good reason.
For the past month, though it's still something I struggle with because the old habit is still there, I've been listening to myself more and more. And you guys, it's crazy, but magical things are happening. People, events and opportunities are popping into my life at a rapid-fire pace and everything I do flows through me with ease.
More vagueness, I know, but don't worry, I'll be ready to start sharing again very soon. In the meantime, thank you for all your good vibes, late-night conversations & glasses of wine. Thank you for saying 'yes' and thank you for saying 'no'. Thank you for the heartbreak and thank you for the life-lessons. Thank you. No, thank you.
Ah hell, thank you for being a friend.
Everything does happen for a reason. I believe that more strongly than ever.