Grow Your Own Way

I'm over thinking it. Tomorrow, Roller Derby Saved My Soul opens at the Arts Court Theatre and I am totally over thinking it. I don't know why I suddenly feel like that's not enough. Like I need to have a some kind of huge big budget production all of a sudden, even though I have no money to do such a thing, or I need to have a completely different story of sorts so that people will still laugh and be interested.

This is ridiculous. The show that was chosen for this remount is they show that the selection committee saw at the Ottawa Fringe Festival in June. And yes, it has grown and developed over the past two months in ways that make me happy - some new scenes, different sound cues and perhaps *gasp* a makeshift set. So why don't I feel like that's enough?

Probably because even though the show is awesome, I want it to be awesome-er. And I want it to be awesome-er yesterday. It's as if I'm happy my child has now learned how to crawl, but dammit why haven't you learned to drive a car yet? That is just LAZY! But you know what? Baby's going to learn something new when it's good and ready.

So today, in the midst of getting final polish on everything for our opening night tomorrow, I'm going to go easy on myself.

It's a good show, Nancy, now just go out there and have fun with it.

You will come out and join me, won't you?

LIMITED ENGAGEMENT: Roller Derby Saved My Soul at the Arts Court Theatre - 2 Daly Avenue, Ottawa (ON) - August 11, 12 & 13 at 8 p.m.