Hack Cough Choke

What is it about auditions that can turn a bright talented young woman into a pile of brainless mush? I prepared a monologue I could recite in my sleep (in fact I wouldn't be surprised if I had).  I worked on a song that I had performed well not two days ago.  I was ready as I was ever going to be.  I went to bed with a smile on my face because I knew I was going to rock it.

Maybe it was hearing the beautiful notes coming out of the audition room or from people warming up down the hall.  Maybe it was running into some incredibly talented people also up for the same part.  Maybe.  But somewhere along the line, I lost my nerve.

First, I blanked on my monologue.  Then I forgot the melody to my song (3 times - don't ask).  Finally, panic started to seep in.  It was over before it even began.

I did learn something however, so there is at least that.  I know my weak points as a performer and I know what I need to work on.  Auditions are so few and far between that I really don't want something like this to happen again.

Now, deep breath, it's time to move on.